ABOUT ME

Alright, I’m going to be upfront right off the bat: talking about myself – particularly my struggles – is a major challenge for me. I’ve always been more comfortable asking questions rather than answering them. It’s one of the many things I’m still working on. That said, there are two ideas I believe in very deeply: 1) All the good stuff — I mean the really, really good stuff — lies on just the other side of our fears 2) Sharing our stories is one of the most powerful tools we have for growth and connection. So, with that in mind, let’s do some growing…

My journey with wellness has been a winding one, filled with ample ups and downs. As young as 6, I can remember looking in the mirror and comparing my body with the other girls in my dance and gymnastics classes. By the age of 11, I’d developed my first full-blown eating disorder. I spent the next decade or more in an extremely tumultuous, combative relationship with food, my body, and my overall sense of self-worth. I cycled through periods of restrictive eating, bingeing and purging, and over-exercising, driven by the idea that the way my body looked somehow demonstrated my personal discipline, work ethic, and worthiness as a human. 

I felt trapped in a body that didn’t feel like mine. I became a spectator in my own life, terrified of putting myself out there and delaying experiences until I could just hit that magic number on the scale.

Pictures? Hell no. Trying on clothes in dressing rooms? I’d rather sit on a knife. Dating? See previous responses. Despite all my efforts — the diets, the workouts, the supplements, the teas…seriously, you name it, I’ve probably tried it! — I watched in horror as my weight kept moving further and further away from that magic number. As it did, my confidence crumbled. The overwhelming anguish I carried with me day to day began to feel like too much to carry…

I wish I could say there was a defining moment when everything suddenly changed. Like I went to Bali or did an Eat, Pray, Love excursion and returned a new, more enlightened being. But alas, that isn’t my story, or at least not a chapter I’ve reached yet. The turning point for me came when I was suffering from such acute anxiety and body shame that what I ate and how I looked dominated every moment of my waking thoughts. My self-hatred had peaked to a point where I wanted to crawl into a deep dark hole and simply give up – anything to escape the incessant chatter and negativity of my unrelenting mind.

Instead, at the insistence of my mother, I found my way to my college’s counseling offices. 

It was there that I first encountered tools to examine the beliefs I held about my self-worth as it related to my physical body. I was able to finally understand and dismantle the distorted notion of morality that I’d attached to my appearance. I began to question the tyrannical, perfectionistic voice that had dominated my psyche for as far back as I could remember. As I did this internal work, my compulsive behaviors around food and exercise gradually gave way to more peaceful, intuitive practices.

And, of course…

The extra weight melted off. But, to my surprise, my body wasn’t the only thing that changed.

As I delved deeper into my belief system and inch-by-inch shifted my perception of the world and my place in it, every aspect of my life expanded. Within a year, my life transformed. I found myself with a wide array of new hobbies and skills, an inspiring and encouraging community of friends, and a profound sense of self-worth and appreciation that I’d never before experienced. It was as if I’d magically stepped into the life of the person I’d always dreamt of being.

But the truth is, the transformation wasn’t magic, at least not in the way I expected. It was a series of small steps, of building my confidence just by putting one foot in front of the other. The magical aspect of the process for me was in finding the guidance (and occasional push)I needed to take those steps. 

So many of us put our lives on hold for a time in the far-off future when we’ll feel confident or motivated. But here’s the big secret: confidence comes from taking steps, right fucking now. While those steps may, at times, be uncomfortable, nerve-wracking, pain-in-the-ass, little SOBs that make your hands clammy and your heart feel like it may beat out of your chest, they are vital to getting to where you want to go. My passion is helping you find the strength and courage within yourself to go ahead and take them. Because I believe wholeheartedly that you are more than capable. You are capable and you are so damn worthy of the health, love, career, and life of your dreams. And I cannot wait to cheer you on through every step of the journey.

My passion is helping you step outside your comfort zone to create your healthiest, happiest, highest vibe life.

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MY COACHING METHOD

  • Dive Deep

    It starts with a non-judgemental exploration of your current behaviors, beliefs, and narratives.

  • Cultivate Compassion

    Positive, lasting change cannot come from a place of shame or self-loathing.

    Cultivating a foundation of profound self-love is at the heart of our work together.

  • Take Action

    We build confidence by tackling the scary-but-rewarding things that we usually put off for some far-off future.

    That future starts now.


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